My name is Precious, I was Bipolar and I live a full Life.

As I write this, it’s 7: 45 pm in Lagos, Nigeria. Hubby is on his way back from work, the children have just fallen asleep and I have had some time to myself to reflect on the activities of the past few weeks.

To start with, #ROTH2016, #TheBirthingStool (The Return of the Helper Conference) was awesome. It was one defining moment in my year. Talking about the year, it’s a few days to August, and earlier in the day, I kept thinking,”The months are rolling by so fast, what will I remember 2016 for? Will I be determined to focus on the good and discard the bad? Or will I hold on to the past success and not move on to what lies ahead? Will I allow the limitations of my circumstances to stop me? Will I give fear a place in my heart or allow faith to dominate my heart?”

In 2004, shortly after I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, I did a search on the internet to see if there was anyone in Nigeria who had been through what I was going through. I found one lady. I did a search recently and I still found her, only that she had updated her content, but one phrase remained constant: Imperfectly perfect… She says it like this: I am perfect, yet imperfect because of bipolar…’

The first time I came across the phrase I understood it, or perhaps I thought I did. In the past few weeks, I have been able to relate with that phrase, I am perfect, yet imperfect because of bipolar…’

But I won’t let the imperfect perfection of bipolar stop me. I won’t let those persistent thoughts that are untrue stop me. Neither will I settle for the lie that I am not good enough! I am Very Good. In Genesis 1:31, God looked at all that He had made and saw that it was Very Good. God’s love for me qualifies me for a full life. I am perfectly made and formed by my Maker and for His pleasure. And since the manufacturer has detailed knowledge about how His product will function, I’m determined to stick to His manual (the Bible).

So this post is actually a note to Self.

You are valuable. You are loved. You matter. You are formed in an intricate and fascinating way that enables you to deliver uncommon results in your area of gifting. And with a bipolar background or not, you rock! (Yes you do. Precious, you rock!)

I refuse to be silent about the things that matter. I refuse to give attention to distracting thoughts and accusing voices that have no base.
Christ Jesus died for me. I believe in Him. I believe in His amazing saving grace that has brought me this far. I am thankful to Him for medication and dedicated professionals who helped me and are helping so many out there who are managing bipolar or other forms of mental illnesses.

This is Precious saying don’t be silent. Speak up and get help. Don’t accept everything that the limitations and side effects of bipolar suggest to you. Be firm. Surround yourself with people who love and understand you, people who are committed to your success.  If you are not clear on any issue, approach them with the right attitude and they will listen to you, because they understand you. They know that you are a victor and not a victim. They know that the imperfections of bipolar do not define you. They know your value. They recognise that you are unique in a positive way. You are different. Bipolar should not define you!
My Support Team! This Picture illustrates how God’s love perfects me

My name is Precious, I was Bipolar and I live a full Life.

Lord, I am forever in awe of your love for mankind. Thank you for loving me. Your love perfects me. Your love gives me the wings to fly. Thank you for the way you formed me and for the things you have equipped me to accomplish. Thank you, Jesus!
Scriptural References:

Genesis 1:31 KJV
Psalm 139: 13-18 KJV

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